A Bellydancing Fairy: October 2007

I've had a lot of things on my mind lately and, to sort them out, I've been meaning to write them for some time now. First off, this past Monday, the 15th, was both Dan's birthday and our first anniversary. It's hard to believe that it's been over a year since I first went to Ireland and since I first met him. The time has passed so quickly, but then it also seems like we've always had each other, like we've known each other for ages. He's only been gone a couple weeks and already I can't wait till he comes again at Christmastime. It'll be much more relaxed this time, since I'll be out of school and we'll mostly be sticking around town. There's been several nights I've been sleepless, thinking over all the things to show him, everything we'll do, what we'll talk about, what movies we'll watch, and just how good it'll be to be able to touch him, to see his face while I talk to him. It's been hard being this far apart, but it feels doable, and I just keep looking forward to the next time he calls me, the next time I'll see him.

Another thing on my mind is everything I have ahead of me as far as school goes. Unfortunately, I don't think I'll be able to transfer to CSUS this coming year. I still have several general ed classes to complete, as well as lower division classes I can complete at Solano and save money. Thus, I'll probably have another year at community college, and perhaps transfer for spring semester a year from now.
I'm also debating the whole living at home situation. Right now I'm looking at buying another car since Meghan technically owns the Camry and she's been driving me nuts. At some point in the near future I'd like to buy a house in Village Homes, but I can't afford monthly payments on my salary, even if I rent out the extra rooms. I don't want to waste money on renting an apartment, but I really am not sure how long I can stay at home now after having lived on my own in Ireland. I'm hoping I can stick it out until I have more money saved up. Otherwise, I might have to fork out the money to share an apartment with someone. Any takers? :P

The last thing I've been thinking about is the current drama in the gang of high school friends. I've noticed over the years that the biggest drama's usually revolve around two friends in the group who dated. My sister offered the suggestion, "well, that's why you shouldn't date friends." However, I've noted something rather interesting: rather than dating within the group of friends exclusively, we tend to date other people, and then those others get incorporated into the group. For instance, I became friends with a great portion of the gang through dating James. Had I not dated him, I never would have met Molly and Olin, and that whole drama wouldn't have occurred. I just find it interesting how our group has grown and morphed through time, with one person or another losing favor as alliances change. Since I have pretty much been out of the picture for the past couple years, I feel that I can't know which side of the story to place myself (not that that is new... I've usually been in the middle of things in just about every issue... good ole neutral Anja :P). I don't really want to get caught in the middle of the silent feud that seems to be going on, but I'm not going to write off one side just because another side says I should, and I don't feel any animosity against the accuser, either, for they have their reasons as well. Basically, I'm going to remain neutral until I know more of what's happening, and even then, I will probably remain neutral. If that bothers people, that I can't and won't pick a side in most cases, then they really don't know me very well and are too closed minded to understand that every side, no matter how bad one or the other sounds, has its own reasoning that needs to be listened to and empathized with.